Summer, life is so vibrant,Discount UGG boots, the front of the sweet-scented osmanthus trees, in the summer has not forgotten to pour fragrance. Chlorophytum just migrate to the basin, but also out of several shoots. With a slanting down the stretch, like a first visit to the wizard world, interested in watching this new world. I really like this one, and often speak into, also in my baby talk. I think I understand the baby has a sweet whisper. He has had six months - although still in my stomach. He often will be very naughty to play my belly, but also Gulp to over and over again. Brother often stroking my belly and told him: da. Barren winter green fields have been covered, sugarcane seedlings have been high over her head, large areas of rice seedlings have been bred.
time flies Oh!
this a magical seed to take root in my womb, I always thought that my life would be incomplete. One child, how shameful expect! One AIDS, how would there be the opportunity to become a mother and rights too! What's more, my brother - my dear love, not just a people with AIDS, but also a hepatitis B patients, even in the autumn of last year, and even walk, he must want me to hold the ah! I have been unable to clearly explain myself to the child psychology. Over the years, my brother and I are very eager to have their own baby. Initially, we could not suppress the idea by this torment, I thought I can not forgive to the point of greed. Birth to a child, even think about it are full of guilt. However, we still do not want to. Countless times online searching and consulting a doctor, that block, the baby less than two per cent chance of infection, and now, in the block of cases, the infection has not yet found an example of the baby. After struggling for two years after witnessing his brother's health ups and downs. I categorically decided to give birth to a baby, so that our life can survive.
in and comprehensive plan, angel Ruqierzhi. At this point, my CD4 was only 160. In such a case, whether pregnant or not, I have to take antiviral drugs to the early. In the care center, doctors told in detail the risks and pressures that I'm pregnant, ask me: moment, but suddenly had tears in impulse.
my life, since then, to start a new course.
2005 in the summer,UGG boots, I put all my love and dreams delivered to a man whom I love. We can walk in the sunset, until the old, in addition, to our lives, I do not have any luxury.
my cup of happiness was filled up full, I could not heart to God a little more obtainable.
We meant to taste the sweetness of life, oblivious to the fate of a God seems to have arranged by the catastrophe,UGG boots clearance, has been quietly followed us a long time. At this point, it has the slightest to issue a sneer.
2005 年 summer, her brother's long limbs to the thick layer of skin rash, rub any drugs do not work. Friends joke with the nowadays usual joking: However, a prophecy. One evening in August, my brother suddenly launched a high fever. Still, no one cares, but that this is too much heat and the body is too weak brother's sake. However, for several days, ordinary fever medicine, can only give his brother a day to maintain the improvement. As night fell, he was sent back the ghosts of light, but also attached to the brother who could not wait. We are still not aware that this is grinning AIDS. Heat caused by the re-issued by the fever fever, there is often some of our disease. My brother is forcing hospital until a week after he returned from the hospital, was unusually silent for a long time before we struggled to open: melon, which we love to eat the fruit. I look zheng zhu, and do not know why, I do not feel he was joking, but I did not realize the seriousness of the matter. I strongly pressing the panic inside, her brother said: I, I, no different from the plains of thunder. I tried to convince myself that it is not possible. However, I also found my rebuttal is so feeble, the subconscious, the bad news has shattered my belief in full.
tears, such as the burst of water, flooding the floor.
At that time, we do not have personal computers. In cafes, in the office, I can not even enter in the search bar Days, so in desperation and fear in the day by day goes by. I think my brother's life can no longer use a calendar to count down. I married a firm belief it abruptly at this time. Bring me a dream for this man, for this I love and deeply sad, was the fate of the men tease.
9 months, we gather the money and then set foot on the road Nanning confirmed. Doctor had me to be a screening, I am at a loss, he agreed. I feel like I have no sense, and overload of grief and fear, so I almost forget that he is her brother's lover. Confirmed the results obtained after one week. When the CDC out of the door, I feel that seems to have no sense of waiting. The results have been naked before us. On the way back, my brother has said to me: .
week later, my brother went to the Nanning alone. That day, I have been in the room, watching the alarm clock. The afterglow of the setting sun through the heavy noise and dust, very sad to shine in the old curtains, my phone was abruptly awakened me. That one is the older brother with a crying voice: I am eager to call the phone: No matter how long.
brother was not optimistic the situation is, must immediately take antiviral drugs, and I'm fine. Later, a long period of time, I slowly know, the right to take antiviral drugs can effectively control the disease and prolong life. And after taking his brother, the body can recover rapidly, within six months rose from 9 to CD4 150, also broke me, The two of us to bear the
for various reasons, until 2007, we officially husband and wife. In addition to taking medicine on time, my brother is no different from ordinary people. He had three months after taking the antiviral drugs began with ordinary people, for life So tired. Until April 2007, I own a computer, to get to know patients on the network, but also until this time,UGG boots cheap, we get out of my brother and two patients who circle. Occasionally, I will be awakened from a dream, but dawn comes, the haze will be cleaned up completely. Life begins to show us more of her warm smile. We began to want a baby. Once, this is how far the luxury thing ah! By this time, we started to dare to dream of this in high spirits and hard things well.
However, life always people off guard. This is all good, soon to be brother of a piece of paper reports of liver function tests broken.
do not know whether the doctor's negligence, when my brother in the first antiviral drugs even without taking two pairs of semi-hepatitis B inspection. In his lamivudine, zidovudine and resistance levels combined Vera, the only time to do liver function examination. Medication in the first three years, my brother has normal liver function, and no major side effects what happens, the days move forward on such a placid, flowing. December 2007, my brother went to the drug and infectious disease doctors do a routine liver function tests, all good. A time when winter is the most labor time brother. He, like many freight drivers, day and night to run around with, is often too tired eyes could not open, and before nap lying on the steering wheel, and continue exhausted. Chinese New Year period, visiting friends and relatives, could not help persuade his brother not, a drink a few glasses. At this time, a friend suggested my brother wrong face, yellow, puffy, like hepatitis. Indeed, a good brother, several kilograms heavier than usual, angular face has become sensuality together. This is what I have been looking forward to, I always wanted to be able to grow too fat little brother. A friend suggested to me a little uneasy. But the brother has been no response, appetite as before, never greasy food taboos and spirit not seen anything unusual, and asked him what is comfortable, no. At this point next to the drug from the time - in January 2008 and soon, so my brother did not care how, when you said to wait until January to be another look at medicine liver function. This investigation, is no trivial matter to us scared. ALT 400, jaundice almost 100. View information on more than 400 for any transaminase, or patients with clinical jaundice, all anti-viral treatment should be suspended, and ALT above 400, meaning that his brother has a potential life-threatening. Asked the doctor what causes liver function mutation, the doctors do not know, that might be side effects. Let the doctor under investigation which is not infected with hepatitis - I always think it is infected with hepatitis. The doctor said there is no need, priority, or full suspension of antiviral drugs, JiangMei liver.
aminotransferase brother down soon, and we went to People's Hospital of the two pairs of semi and hepatitis B hepatitis B viral load in check, my brother was diagnosed with hepatitis B HBeAg positive patients. In order to reduce the liver injury, doctors will be replaced with nevirapine side effects on liver function is relatively much smaller Shi Ning.
us in the dark once again seen the light. Do not want it, but it is another life, and we joked. Shi Ning taking more than his brother, the side effects of the large, unprecedented. The second day of medication immediately be immediate, the person becomes trance, and then in the near future, the development of an inability to concentrate, his most adept of drivers, this time to think about. Finally, his breast development, ataxia, incontinence.
I took my brother, I rely on this once with my warm man to pixels with a mentally ill child, his ignorant and desperate. I really want to have a speeding car, but after our Zhuangfei, fly it no worries, no sadness, only happiness of heaven.
, however, did not. In addition to my brother, everything is so fresh and live fresh Xinxin Ran. I do not know what else to do, but pulled out all the drugs, the mother says it all. The little old lady in rural fifty years old, in that all of the incident, in bed day and night, as usual give me cook and clean, manage their livelihoods.
mother in front of this great, I can do, I can only wipe away tears, the most pious heart, praying all get better.
God is not too cruel, everything really slowly better. November 2008, more than in the Shi Ning replaced indinavir, the brother of the spirit of getting better again. Slightly to conditioning, he recovered to take the former rather more than the state facilities, CD4 has increased more than 300. By this time, give birth to a baby's desire to have never been so strong. He will be a continuation of our lives.
in this year's May 27, for indinavir because of side effects is too large to be fully eliminated, the doctor pushed it into the chocolate Chi, and medication so far, so good. The unborn baby, and are often in my belly,
many friends questioned our approach, fearing it would not harm the baby. We often ask ourselves this right. But I also always think, the existence of a life, there is always reason for his existence and meaning. Like a leaf, after going through four seasons, no, not necessarily through the four seasons, it will flutter and fall. But for four seasons, to the warm sunshine and water, moonlight, or is exposed to the sun the next day after clearing the mind which kiss, cool breeze after the storm stroking the moment, but also from the bark of the drill, such as iron out.
I firmly believe that when a new bud came to this new world, to meet the storm in addition to his baptism, as well as the rising sun, and warm breeze, chirping of birds there, there ... ...
the world's most beautiful of all the most intimate.
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