Eighteen Springs

 The sake of fourteen Manzhen because of dystocia into the hospital. I wish your family had a delivery the obstetrician to the house, is that they are familiar with a female doctor, and often, and Manlu table playing cards, and that female doctors is also a clear first-class passengers figure, for the rich man s house are many strange situation also see much more, it no singularity, so that she can trust Manlu. She is not the medical channel can be clever, sympathetic touch dystocia. She claims the hospital, But the wish has been the extension next to the house, do not worry so Manzhen out of that door, until the last moment had just hurried to her car to a hospital. is Manlu go with her, and Manlu means, of course to live in first class wards as much as possible to isolate her and the outside world, but the second happened to the first ward are full, and back to a hospital in fear of delay, the results of the third class wards had to live. Manzhen I wish she left home at the time have fallen into coma, but a car door slammed shut, car slowly opened out, the garden also excluded a large iron gate opened Lang Lang, she suddenly a clear mind. She finally came out. Siyeyaosi outside. She hated the house, this time out is to never go back, except in a nightmare. She knew that she would dream of it. No matter how great live, and she can hardly forget that enchanted like houses and gardens, horrible dream that she would return to them time and again. She gave birth to a boy in the hospital, only five pounds, and she thought he will not live. night shift nurse the child to hold her feeding, she dim yellow light looked at his crimson face. she was not yet born when her feelings for him is to hate than anything else, although they knew the child was innocent. Even now, children have been here, and hold in her arms, and she felt a trace of surprise still in the slight thrill of hatred. he looks like? In fact, this new-born baby is what people are like, just like a red red red of skinned cat However Manzhen his face as if to find some kind of suspicious points, made her suspect he was a bit like a wish, but David is not her only .-- In any case, nothing like. It was also said children in the stomach when pregnant If something that people often miss the mother, the children in the future to look like that person .-- Shijun it look like? really can not tell. think Shijun, she immediately felt I was very confused. I wish the family level prisoners quiet years, she was eager to meet him, and has everything she met told him that only he can comfort her. She seemed never thought that she had had a child with someone else, he does not She would be a little different? It is only human, right? but she idealized him, and she believes he is only more love her, because she suffered so many hardships. She was such a pain in the lucky people who absolutely trusted , she can always think about him on the head, it was her only consolation. But now, she quickly recover their freedom, maybe you can meet him soon, and she fell and concerns about it. If he was in Shanghai, and that happened to this hospital to visit friends, see her through this room - that great, save her out immediately, but - if he saw this happen to be sucking child leaning on her side, he think? for him to think about it, is really very embarrassing. She looked at the child, the child is fully dedicated to sucking the milk, as if anxious to put her to drink it all like this man. She was trying to quickly leave the hospital, perhaps leaving tomorrow, but she can not take your child to go. her own future and also the vast, still do not know how to go out after a situation. let them live down her sister not to worry, she will not ill-treat his sister is not always wanted a son? But the child is too thin. She believed he would die. she suddenly bent over and kissed him Unforgettable. she felt a mother who is on the frontier between life and death The rush of the contingency, soon parted, but now they are being closest to the people in the world. care to their children taken away, she was to nurse a glass of water. to the amount of heat the last time she had said through this, is now saying, and still did not get it. she really thirsty a lot and had shouted: cough. They two beds separated by a white cloth screen. They have spoken across the screen, that is not the first child a woman asked Manzhen, is male or female. her own students is a male, and Manzhen the children born the same day, has only a difference of less than an hour. This woman's voice sounds very young, she was already a mother of four, and her husband, surnamed Tsai, her name is Kim Fong, the couple were placed in small farms eggs, live. That night Manzhen heard her cough, sidewalk: like to be like a beggar, 'Miss, Miss' screamed loudly. I really hate hurt, think really, Yeniang her in-laws are not subject to the gas I ran to here by their gas! a body, and said: , Man Lu sent her to the hospital, probably hung before her as a wife I wish to register. Manlu every day to visit a few days ago, the hospital knows that I wish she surname, but as her husband's family is Manzhen person. Kim Fong See Manzhen hard-put to to asked: ? window frames of the white cross. In dim lighting, Man Zhen as her experiences as told by Cai Jinfang. She told Jin Fang has not always been met until now, but felt instinctively that it was an enthusiastic person, and she really need assistance. originally intended to have the opportunity to tell a doctor here, she requested an early discharge, ranging from families to access. or tell the nurse called them to convey the same, but here on the third ward doctor and patient care is clearly do not take them seriously, who control all you happy family disputes. and she's such a bizarre thing, people could not believe her? if Manlu down insisted she was mentally ill, while her body was not recovered at this time, there is no power struggle, and again she forcibly stand back, although many hospitals Azeri, who has time to manage the big deal. She could see for himself a bit of a mentally ill indeed, the hair grows very long, matted to disclosure in the shoulder , and there is no mirror, can not see his face, but she could see her hands now become so pale, thin wood rods like the wrist, high on top of a snail bone up. as long as two feet a little a bit strong, come down to earth to be able to stand, she quietly slipped out of their own, but she felt dizzy even sit up, hate only to blame their own bodies. She discussed with Jin-Fang, to care for her husband, Jin-Fang family send a letter, called her mother to pick her up right away, in fact, she felt the top of this approach is not appropriate, what is the attitude of her mother also did not know, most have been bought by her sister, or how she lost her freedom for almost a year Le did not try to rescue her? think this is her most painful, can not think of her own mother was actually the case. down but not as a stranger such as Cai Jinfang meet. Kim Fong indignation was great, said her sister sister Cardiff is simply not a human being, said: Manzhen whispered: ; your statement is also good. I have just called the gas faint, in fact, we do small businesses, eating policeman bitterness has not had enough? What I do not know - go drag them to the police station what with, who has money who is not fierce! never do they sued, and at most ask them to count out money damages. Fang heard this, seems a little more respect for her, sidewalk: me. walk him mix a mix hello. channel: come. Kim Fong has said: both of them carefully deliberated for a while. they voice too light, and heard the first one with the pillow is not clear, it never needs his head hanging, very difficult. talk about the stop, take a look at the weather has been slightly clear. The next afternoon , to allow families to visit the time is eagerly looking forward to gold Man Zhen Fang's husband come on, who knows he has not come yet, Man Lu and Hung did come together. hung just to the hospital this is the first time in years, before did not show. He is holding a flower, exposing a very cramped look. Manlu carrying a food basket, every day, simmer the chicken soup she sent. Manzhen saw them put the eyes closed on the. Manlu smiling softly called out, : empty out, immediately move in the past. to give you a look. you have not seen it. good. husband and wife teasing children play, the child cried sorts, Man Lu and make all kinds of strange noises to coax him. Manzhen always close their eyes to ignore them. Manlu heard David was asked: that nurse to work? a cry: to turn away, Manlu yet to catch up, pinned him she asked: but do nothing, except to say loudly: Light shook patting children. a long while Fang said: . already know like the red colors! pillow. Manlu looked Manzhen face, see she did not dislike the look, in turn whispered: the things to hate his life. about to leave the child away, my heart is felt sorrow and grief, did not think back again after the last time this side of see above. she did not look toward the child, but to round his silence, her cheek in his rub the head. Manlu do not know her mentality. be looking, but happy, thinking Manzhen finally a change of heart, but for a moment no less than the lower face, mouth, but turn to; at this critical moment, speak for themselves is down to be more careful, do not they violated her. So Manlu also silence down. Cailin Sheng Jin Fang's husband had come waiting for ages. across a white screen, you can hear them whisper, presumably Kim Fong 've Manzhen a love a story told him. They listened attentively side there is also talk quiet down here, over there and talked Le. Kim Fong asked him how many dyed red eggs, asked him to come here, who asked where the egg stalls and take care of. They had not so many words, Lin students should have gone, because only together with Manzhen go, so I had to wait. old sitting there do not talk, look strange, had come up with some words and off. about the couple never had this long talk, I feel very difficult. Lin Chan said his sister two days in the egg stalls help sister is also a pregnancy. Kim Fong told him how how bad the care here. Manlu do not sit there and go visit the families of the time is almost over. Some families brought you to the maternal heart and snacks to eat it chestnut shell of a land, the family left the hospital an attendant holding the broom to sweep the floor, howling swept forward, slowly sweep to the side here, clearly some Zhuke flavor. Manzhen feeling very anxious. see those chestnut shell, she thought Tangchaolizai listed, and not have deep autumn, the groggy wish house down has been jailed for almost a year. She suddenly wildly to himself, said: Cake flour has about right? Maybe it was too late, when? Lu said: hurried away. Manzhen assess her walking away, and awaiting the knock on the screen, Lin has been holding a roll of clothes Health cover to the side here. is a gold plaid dress fang, a wool take the scarf and a pair of green cloth loops shoes. his hands to Manzhen, without a word and went. Manzhen saw his hands were bright red, presumably eggs dyed red. She can not help but smile, but also feel a little wistful, as she and Kim Fong is also a child of her own situation is so bleak. she hastily added Kim Fong's clothes outside, and then pocket scarf Doutou face a pack to half the face are hidden inside, and good mothers always afraid of the wind, they do not seem special. wear neat tie, tired Chuyishenhan have come down, standing ground, two feet as if standing on the virtual fluttering like cotton. She Rotary wall touch screen wall sneak to the side, Lin Health and helped her go. She is only a passing glance of gold Fang, Jin-fang is a long face, yellow complexion, facial features are very pretty raw. Lin looks of Health not bad. He escorted Manzhen, going out on duty of care to Manzhen kids to baby's room, no back, so if they unhindered. under this floor, of course, No one will recognize them. Out the door, the door a few more parked rickshaw, Manzhen immediately boarded a, Lin told the driver to Health hood down, said she was afraid of the wind, rain cloth on the front and cover. rickshaw away, and go for a very long way, but also cross the bridge. the sky is already dark, eyes lighting messy. Lin students live in an alley in Hongkou, the family is the couple with several children, lived in a garret. Lin birth to a home to Manzhen settled, and hurried out to her house messenger. She also asked him to promise a call to the house, sounded not a Mr. Shen Shijun in Shanghai, if so, say, have a last name Gu's find him and ask him to come here to visit. Lin walked Health, Manzhen lay them on the bed, bed down much, slept in the bed of a year old child. plaster peeling off the walls with a variety of paste Illustrated, instead of paper flowers, there are ladies in the photo, flood and drought situation in the pictures, comic drawings, and wedding, there are colorful, with black and white, with brown, like the same stage of the Bai Nayi bright. close to the implantation is a small long table, all the daily necessities are on the table, hot water bottles, oil bottles, mirrors, cup Panwan light, do not start to plug packed Jiaoren. under the roof to hang a light bulb, the light irradiation, Manzhen Looking at this lively little room, she came here like a dream, or lying beside a child, but not her own child. Caijiaying four children, one of the largest is a six-year-old girl, Lin Students went away, lost some money to her and told her to buy soy bread as dinner. stoves lean good woman saw Manzhen asked him about the new female passenger who was his woman, he said Little Sisters, but this thing seems really strange, is somewhat suspicious of a woman while he was in the hospital, the production, the girlfriend came into the house. The little girl bought a soy cake back, and her sister were divided to eat, and delivery a large piece to the Manzhen, resting on the edge of the table. Manzhen he called her on the table and gave her a mirror, holding a mirror a photo that he simply did not know, holding up two high cheekbones high, his face a little color are not even the lips are white, big eyes and no God. She stared for a long time in the mirror, combing his hair, hand picking, the more anxious the more comb partial barrier. her heart very anxious, thinking Shijun case I in Shanghai, perhaps coming soon. In fact, Shijun'd happened two days in Shanghai, but he came here to live in his uncle home, he is as a preparation for the getting married to please Shuhui as best man, in addition to many things to buy. he found Shuhui, is to go Yangshupu quarters, and no home to go to Shu Hui, Xu did not know why he came. Students call to ask Lin, Xu said his wife told him, Mr. Shen is not in Shanghai. Lin students to his home address in accordance with Manzhen, but also to find Manzhen house, a family living there has changed, and the door hanging signs , opened a dancing school. Lin alleys of Health and ask to see the man that Gu had moved out, or move the end of last year. Lin students come back and tell Manzhen, Manzhen heard, it would not feel that what surprised. This is nothing else, it must be Manlu the drastic measure. so her mother is entirely in the hands of his sister, this time even to find her useless, or rather to stir up a lot of trouble. But now her how to do it, not only unaccompanied, and penniless. Lin left her students live here, he lived to his sister that night went home. Manzhen feel very feel apologetic. She did not know each other in times of crisis care for the poor is not What kind, they always live in precarious, particularly so for people in distress can sympathize with, and their sympathies are not wealthy people, like the clamp for a variety of scruples. This is her only after slowly felt, was secretly glad that she just happens to be her students and Jin-Fang Lin met the couple on the special loyalty. That night, she told them the biggest girl borrowed a pencil to a piece of paper wanted to write a simple letter to Shijun, tell him to take a trip. seeing too can see him, but she felt slim down together, the man felt unsure of his. She remembered that his conservative character side. he could not fully understand her, but also to love her as before? If he is desperate to love her, that when the last time they met would not fight, quarrel reason is also because of his families are too compromised. his marriage, if he had not passed at home, and now of course can not talk about the - if they knew she had a child out of Health. she write in hand, my heart would think a loss. and she writes of a very brief letter, said after her ever since, respectively, a disease so far, I hope he can see the letter as soon as possible to Shanghai to visit, she told him the address now, with no other things, signed only a did not come back in Shanghai. his mother, while not illiterate, often wrote to former Manzhen, there is a period of Shijun live in a small mansion of his father, his letter was forwarded to his mother brought him personally, she can see is a woman's handwriting, and later saw Manzhen to guessed that she, no others. Now repeat the scene did not believe there is more than six months ago, suddenly came this letter, his wife met with Shen , it is uneasy to himself, Shijun here already have the day to get married soon, do not because this letter, but also changed their mind up. she was a little hesitant, they then opened the letter, read to take it called the big soul mate her. big soul mate read it because: people talk for a while, said There have been some hesitation, she received the letter that he would right away, that she would be very determined. She counted to three or four days he was not arrived, but a more than a week, etc., from the early hope to late, not only do not come, not even a reply. She thought, did not he have heard elsewhere that had happened to her, so do not want to see her anymore? He really is the case Boqingguayi, had met a really white. She lay in bed, eyes closed, though, that the tears just flow out of the cold wet pillow, a large and sometimes turn over her pillow, then looked on, sometimes upside down it wet side is crying. She thought and thought, unless it is forfeited to that letter, he did, was his interception down the family. If that's the case, it is useless to go to write, still down or are retained . had to be patient to recuperate, so recovery of the body, and his look for him to Nanjing. But this money does not do a really anxious person. live in the Tsai family, is not such thing as other people, also accounted for the only room live, which led to no home to return Students Lin, really in the heart of unrest. She thought of her office still did not take half a month salary, took to also be an emergency, to write a note, sent Health care Lin to the factory sent a man with him a back, the exhausted face to her. She heard the man say they have also used a typist. She got the money, took the third floor empty rent a garret down, moved upstairs to live, Lin Health and bought two for her and the two essential plank furniture, tea and meals supplied by him still. Manzhen left her some money to him, as the food fees, he must would not take that trouble so that she will find them and then slowly also good. At this time Kim Fong has returned from the hospital, raising interest rates at home with, some forcing her to her Manzhen keep this money, gold will be given a free hand Fang, Lin asked students to cut a few feet line on the road, coupled with in substance, to Nongkou the tailor, made a folder for the Manzhen gown, or she with a clothes do not. more money under the gold Fang still has her, called her keep pocket money, Manzhen fail to beat her, the only thing holding. Kim Fong told her when discharged that day bought a chestnut flour cake Manlu back found Manzhen been missing, how to pursue Actually, I'm just a child then put back the same day. Manzhen guessed they must have a guilty conscience, so it Buganshengzhang, as long as they can protect the child even if the. Manzhen whether the body of the foundation Well, young people who recover quickly, and soon healthy again. She immediately went to Shu Hui, asked him to look for a job for her, but also thought, ending up clever words, but also maybe can see Shijun, if His words in Shanghai. She picked a Saturday evening to Xu's house, because then Shuhui more chances at home. walked from the back door, are met Shu Hui's mother in the kitchen operation, called Manzhen Sound aunt, Mrs. Hsu smiles: He just returned from Nanjing back. the sound of her shoes, there is a girl greet strangers out, with an air of inquiry looked at her. Manzhen down suspicious people is wrong, and then laughed: She the asked Shuhui begins with the inside out, laughing: arithmetic girl. That girl and her smiling nod, Man Zhen Wang Ran down and think. into the room to sit down, Shuhui smiles: . , give them to make peace. perhaps Shijun entrusted to him. the moment she took a sip of tea to drink, they Dashan Zhao and Shu Hui's sister to speak. He is a shy little sister about the age, stood next to a smiling Council then went out again. Shuhui see her go, they went to shut the door, he leaned against the door chuckle: you does not matter - I am prepared to go to the liberated areas. looked at him smile: pimple temper, but so love beautiful, she can not help but smile. But she said: her, so I called my father after I told her to go. Now I told her to do things is to the north. In fact, this is the truth, I go over there doing the same, but the point is that more meaningful work Le. - This is not to escape, she would have a conscience, and she is afraid of him nothing more difficult. She just stared thinking, Shuhui see her answer, he also knows that everyone has his own difficulties, She has always been a heavy family responsibilities, probably could not get away, he said no down. Manzhen old and did not see him bring Shijun, feeling very strange. or she will be asked early on, and do not know how the , the more frightened, more afraid to move to ask. Duanqichabei her to tea, surrounded by Dashan Zhao looked at, laughed: : said, When leaving, Shu Hui: how, not you be busy? You is not there? how lost it! of? a Yanghuo points cigarette, threw the match out of the window, he stood there, facing the window, deep call a cigarette. Manzhen can not help it, they also walked over, standing hand on the windowsill next to him, with a smile and asked: pressed in the window, except that the fluctuations in the window waves themselves do not understand how it becomes a solid wood-like wave imaging, are pinching pinching is not strong. Shuhui see her like zheng zhu, and right again laughed : . Fortunately Shuhui also avoid looking at her, just looked out the window, said: Nanjing to see that Miss Shi? She did not know he is full of depression, because Cuizhi's sake. Manzhen sit for a while, sidewalk: Hui said that exchange of communications at her with, but he did not go over there and a certain address, and she is now temporarily living in a friend's house, so it had to forget it. She came out from the Shuhui home, just feeling that in color. I wish she really can not think of home for nearly a year off, came out and the outside world had been a change. less than a year, Shi Jun and others have been married? she walked under the street lights, only to take a lot of road it should be tram. but by the wrong tram again, this tram, but the bridge, and stopped at the Bund, and she can only walk down their own. have probably been to a few rain and some wet ground. gradually come to the bridge on light steel bridge that point was sharp, the shadows of the great bridge, a section of the big black thick stick, cross the waters in the sallow. many boats moored under the bridge, which a large section of a large section of the shadows fall In Chuanpeng aboard. there is no glimmer of light on the water. here do not know how deep the water? that flat surface, almost like a sallow, like cement, jump I do not know is killed or drowned. a bridge open trucks rumbled past, the ground trembled, shook one foot numb heart. She just stood in the bridge carrying the body, afford to the water looked. No matter how bad someone else for her, even her own sister sister, his mother, have not Shijun that made her sad. Shuhui home just to hear him in the news, she was like the time on the anesthetic surgery, groggy, it would not feel how painful , and now had just gradually recovered, and that pain has just begun. Jiujiu bridge boat black case, no lighting, all persons on board must have fallen asleep. time around late, Jin-fang said call her ...